this will be the last post here in livejournal.
i'm shifting grounds to a greener patch of grass.
what m i talking man.
have always wanted to change to another blog but kept procrastinating so i guess now it gives me mor reason to do so.
i was wondering should i wriet a nasty 1 or otherwise.
but i guess this little journal of mine have been filled with too much sadness and anger.
so i shall do the other then.
thanks for whatever you've done or tried doing.
i'm happy for u that u've finally realise what kinda person i'm.
good for you.
i've always wanted to fuck out of ur life.
but u're the one who kept pulling me back with all those pleads and beggings.
so now u choose that u want me to fuck off already.
haha. who are you to say what i shld do.
you want to kepp this r/s den u beeg and plead like hell.
then when u don't want to, you raised ur voice and ask me fuck off and hang up the phone on me?
wao..that shows what a good guy u'r right.
before you ask other to reflect, u do it urself.
well don't ask me to use it on myself coz i always do reflect.
but all in all, finally u've decided to let go.
that's good.
and never want to see me again?
well, now i'm shifting grounds, u won't be able to know what's happening to me.
or maybe you won't accidentally click onto this website and accidentally read it.
but this is not all for you, i want it this way too.
exams are nearing so most prob i'll set up the new 1 after that.
so meanwhile take care guys.
ask from me and i'll decide who i want to give the new add to.
till then.
the most bastard species earth.
the most incorrigible species on earth.
the most heartless species on earth.
the most retarded species on earth.
the most crafty species on earth.
the most horny species on earth.
the most hyprocritical species on earth.
the most idiotic species on earth to only noe how to say 'sorry'
the species that i want most to have nothing to do with from here on.
i dun give a damn if it's you or you or YOU.
i will shut my mouth up in front of this species.
they are so not worth even a word from me.
so now, fuck off, pls get extinct.
or shld i say how long till its back to me.
my skin complexion is getting bad to worse...
late nights, oily food, laziness to wash my face etc etc are the culprits.
i'm getting uglier!!!
projects project and projects are killing me!!
2 more weeks to end of term..
1 more mth to break!!
the big-2 day is approaching..
i'm feeling no a lil bit excited at all..
well wad can i say..
oh wells, tml got a test..
i'm not done yet and i'm still here!!
hahaha kk ciao..b4 i go
updates on list agn..
1) happiness.
2) pass my next tp.
3) get a good and nice bike.
4) slim down
5) gd grades
6) pretty face
- white,black,grey skinnies
- perfume( sweet )
- a big shoulder bag to match my girly clothes when i go out(to put my barangs,esp water bottle hahahahah)
- converse canvas shoe
- more long tank tops/tees with funky words
- shorts (not hot pants that those ah lians wear pls...lol)
- full face helmet (pray that chotto tio toto hahahah)
- gloves (basically anything i need to ride a bike?)
- more accessories
-bikini-es
-cosmetics
-facial product
god, i take back the challenge i posed.
i posed you a new challenge, to make me forget him.
to get rid of him from my memories, from my mind, from my heart.
the pain is unbearable.
Try as i might but i cant do it and i sincerely hope for ur help.
lead me the way.
updates on my birthday wishlist. those with no. are of priority in order of importance.\
* a doggy..i reali wld like to keep 1..but i dunno if i shld..
coz i'm rarely at hm and i got myself and coming bike to feed..
but i reali wan 1!!!! anyone wanna raise a dog wif mi!!!
1) happiness.
2) forget him.
3) pass my next tp.
4) get a good and nice bike.
5) slim down
6) gd grades
- white,black,grey skinnies
- perfume( sweet )
- a big shoulder bag to match my girly clothes when i go out(to put my barangs,esp water bottle hahahahah)
- converse canvas shoe
- more long tank tops/tees with funky words
- shorts (not hot pants that those ah lians wear pls...lol)
- full face helmet (pray that chotto tio toto hahahah)
- gloves (basically anything i need to ride a bike?)
- more accessories
that's all i can add for now i think..
the don'ts for my bday presents:
no chocs..(i reali do live them alot alot but i need to slim down!!)
no softtoys pls..(unless u can get anything to do wif bugs bunny, but not the big version coz i got 2 alr)
tts all i guess for now..
i'm kinda disappointed with myself..
after 2 weeks, i took 3 ytd..
but i wanna forgive myself coz i think its quite big of an achievement considering the pain i'm facing now..
guys if u see me give mi a pat on the shoulder ya.(a soft 1 will do mind you.
reading kitty's blog just now, i miss ...... oso
i'll giv anything to return to that day.
to relive the moments.
even giving up getting a license and my beloved bike.
one of my friend told me that when you open your heart out to jesus, you will feel his help.
he told me there's this page in the bible that a guy challenged god to rain in the parts that he use a leaf to cover.
and it reali worked.
my fren challenged god 3 things and he helped.
so god i challenged you to bring us together. forever.
let me feel you now. show me that u really exist. show me you care.
just today, jas was asking me if i'm gonna get another tattoo coz jovina and her was thinking of sponsoring me for my birthday.
(so bad frens!! tsk tsk...hahahaha)
well, i was thinking of getting but too ex alr, i've to save everything for my bike.
so here's the birthday wishlist for u guys to choose.
as and when i will add in stuff tt i tot of ba..
- white,black,grey skinnies
- perfume( sweet )
- a big shoulder bag to match my girly clothes when i go out(to put my barangs,esp water bottle hahahahah)
- converse canvas shoe
- more long tank tops/tees with funky words
- shorts (not hot pants that those ah lians wear pls...lol)
- a bike? hahahaha
that's all i can think of for now..but i'm sure i'm more greedy that this..wahahahha
but actually the only thing i wish to get is,
happiness with him.
but somehow it seems to mean the other also.
almost 2 weeks of carrying out the 'stop smoking' move and still fighting on.
~~digressing here... in as7 com lab now and there's this guy using the com beside me and he STINKS big time!!!
seriously, i dun usually care bout this but he reali stinks like hell. worse den shit. i cant describe it but it's causing my head to ache!!
back to the topic for today..i so regretted i started smoking..its like if i nv touch at all there wun be any need to resist anything now. and i can tell u, the temptations are overwhelming. I just need a heavy setback to end this move so i hope i can withstand any setback that comes my way..
been some time since i last sprained my ankle..
wrong timing, wrong place!!
there's just too many stairs in NUS!! not to include slopes too!!
terrible i tell u.
i cant feel the muscles building up in my right calf.
i cant help but wonder why is it so hard/impossible for guys(~~digress agn..coz the guy reali stinks!!) and gals to
become gd/best frens. why must the 'love' always comes in between??
and when it comes in, it makes everything so complicated.
do i have to report to you for everything i do?
do i have to ask u for permission for everything i do?
do i have to blame myself coz i nv heed your advice?
you want to get jealous go ahead dun vent this anger on me, dun blame me for doing whatever i do to make u jealous.
i asked u to sae out any misunderstanding, not blame alr den sae out.
needless to sae, want me to answer for the jealousy u're feeling coz it just doesn't make sense to me.
u don't see me stopping you doing anything.
coz i respect ur decision.
and u claim u respect mine den y are u being angry now?
think, reflect b4 u put everything to an end between us.
ichi getsu tabacco o suimasendeshita.
taihen desune ga iidesu.
kono uta ga totemo ga sukidesu.
totemo suteki desu.
OVER YOU by Daughtry.
Now that it`s all said and done
I can`t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt as if I was in way to deep
Guess I let you get the best of me(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago!
And I never thought I`d doubt you
I`m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I`m slowly getting closure
I guess it`s really over
I`m finally gettin` better
Now I`m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
`Cause the day I thought I`d never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other`s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me(Chorus)
I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I`d doubt you
I`m better off without youAnd I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I`m finally getting better
Now I`m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!The day I thought I`d never get through
I got over you.
same goes the pain too.
y have u got to enter into my world?
disrupt my thoughts, mood, behaviour?
y have u got to do so many things?
say so many things to make my heart pound for u?
and then u leave it all alone now.
its getting weaker day by day.
i dunno how long more i can endure.
i've got so many questions to ask.
so many doubts to clear.
i've got so many things to say to u.
to let u noe how i feel.
to let u noe i stil care.
but i dun wan to irritate u.
shld i start avoiding.
i wan to c u but the pain is unbearable.
just too many 'whys'.
who can i turn to for those answers.
on a happier note,
to frens out there..
i've decided to quit smoking and the opeartion is ongoing now.
i hope i can endure the urge with all these stress and pain and uncertainties.
i noe i can do it and i'll do it.
i think its the period of the month.
its getting on me agn.
i'm not so weak in the past.
i used to be happier.
i used to be simpler.
things used to be simpler too.
but as u grow, you change.
ur surronding change too.
till its beyond recognition.
i'm losing my sense of identity.
i duno who i'm anymore.
i duno what kinda person i'm anymore.
i'm losing faith,trust,confidence in myself.
lastly, i just noe.
i'm tired on putting a strong font.
as i'm a reali com idiot i oso dunno how to sae wads wrong.
1st tp of my life and guess what i was late.
not gonna blame anybody coz i missed the alarm myself.
but i reali have no idea when the hell i turn off the alarm.damn.
rush down everything did in a hurry.
1st time oso damn kan cheong.
so fail.
angry at myself for not being able to wake up for warm up.
maybe if i did warm up the results may be different.
disappointed at myself for being buay zai.
but all's in the past.
no point raising it up agn.
coem to think of it, maybe it's fated.
even to think of the tp now my limbs will still go all jelly.
glad we make it out my dear miao miao.
tot i'll be able to ride with you after today.
u tell mi not ro rush and all but reali very difficult to tahan.
esp c u riding for 1 yr le! i haven even get my license.
i was wondering if i shld reply to ur blog.
but nah for what right.
u fuck out of my life and i fuck out of urs.
tian xia tai ping!
if that's e way u are gonna protect me, care for me den i'm more den elated tt u don't now.
i didn't start out wif intention of writing so much but the kick is there so wells..
i stil dream of hima t least once a day.
at night or during noon naps.
i realli think that liking some1 need not mean that u must have him/her.
or does not mean that you 2 shld be together.
i'm contented enough to be able to dream of him. :)
i'm envy of you coz at least you are able to meet the 1 that u lik for almost once eveery 2 days even though you 2 are frens.but tsk tsk too bad u didn't cherish.
till the next time :)
"you know why u feel as if whenever i got problems I will find u?
have u ever think beyond that i m the one always jio-ing u, to lunch, to bday, to go out, to this and that...
all the free ktvs, free sakae, free this and that..."
did i ever sae i nv think beyond tt?? i noe tts y i treat u like a true fren. if not everytime i hear u 2 got prob i so worry for wad..coz i wan u to be happy..wan u to be xin fu..as a gd fren.
in this whole world, there's only two human beings who KNOW me, know what i'm feeling and whats going on in me.
they are ah bao and michelle.
although most of the time i find them because i have the time to (becuz i'm not meetin bf), i will go down to find them, i dont expect them to come and find me.
being friends are not kay gao-ing all these, becaus does it hurt to step out of the mac for someone who travelled down from jurong all the way to amk?
did i sae it hurt to step out of the mac!? if it does rite wad for i went out and waited for u at the roadside?? kay gao-ing? well maybe i'm not like those gd frens of urs..but i have my way of dealing things..and i think at tt time ask DD come is best..i'm worry for ur safety oso.
den did u think beyond all these?
i know why u feel that i always bugged u...
because i know that u have friends outside... bball friends...
not like me... where to find a group of friends to study till 4am at mac?
im just pathetic lah.
and thos times u said u envy abt me for having a bf.
and u said that whenever i have problems with him i'll find u.
everything also u say, i also dono what to do or say liao.
everything oso i sae? did i sae i mind? u sae u are pathetic..look beyond. frens outside..dun u have too? wen was the las time i hang out wif NUS riders?? u have them and i dun have..but did i sae anything?
i think i wont find u anymore...
riding in the middle of the night aimlessly might be better than having a destination because it will take a longer time to get home.
well... next time when i ride ard at 3am, i wont find anyone anymore.
thanks for the TIMEs when u are there to listen to my 'problems'.
and wads the meaning of this?? i dun understand. i noe ppl always sae wrongs tins wen they are angry..i've experienced it.
but b4 regreting y not think everytime b4 u say sth tt wil cost our frenship. and if u dun think u regret saying all these then ya we are jus aquaintances.
u keep wanting ppl to stand in ur stand..have u stand in others b4? u ask mi to think beyond.have u?
if i dun care, i wun worry so much, wun giv DD so many advice. tel him how u feel everytime u 2 quarrel.
i dun mind. DID I EVER SAY I MIND? coz i wan u to be xin fu..and i think he can giv u xinfu.
not like mi always kana play.
do u noe how it feels to c tt from ur blog. u ar the only best fren i noe from nus. or so i tot.
u always sae u are lonely..u see me wif frens..is tt true? how many time su caught mi smoking at as1 alone doin hmwork.
i'm devastated.
found sth tt's really interesting and quite true.
quote " relationship so mafan...ppl jus wan to find trouble for themselves
yes yes...ppl say when in r/s the sweet part damn nice ma...ya...but hw long it wil last....den in the end...ppl jus cry until dey wan to die when den break up...for wad la...alot of ppl haf alot of exp in r/s le...but whenever dey break up still same ting happen...cry and cry...come on lo...lao jiao liao lehz...shuld noe the rules of the game le ma...dun take it too seriously la
so when u wan to go into a r/s..u mus make sure u r strong enuff la...yes...enjoy the r/s...but break up le...dun cry until wan die la...jus let it go la" unquote
obviously those words in bigger fonts and red in colour are what i found so interesting and somewhat true.
esp the "lao jiao"...
thinking back its like..how many times i'd cry over this kinda things..like what he said cry until wan die like tt..its kinda ludicrous thinking back.
esp those scars on my hands.
but isit so easy to do whatever he said?
dun take it too seriously..but what if u put all ur heart into this r/s?
is it so easy to 'dun take it seriously' den..
hmm..answers anybody?
here's another retarded entry of his.
Do You Know That?
teenagers and young adults just cant live a single day w/o tinkin abt luv, includin me, i jus keep tinkin abt tis issue when i haf nth to do, which is nowadays.
i so damn curious abt it cos i jus dun get it, do ppl realli luv each other when r in a relationship and like why do u luv him/her? do u like him/her or do u luv him/her? i do tink luv and like is diff.
the more i tink the more crazy thoughts i haf. i wish to have some sort of powers to let me haf my ans abt luv. i wuld choose a sample grp den use my powers to turn one of the partner of each couple to become ugly all of a sudden or maybe become disabled or disfigured, of cos its just temp. den see hw many couples will continue on. its such a interestin experiment and i'm sure i can get the ans from it, although i more or less know the outcome alreadi.
as u know, ppl who r more unfortunate wif the exteriors tend to have a lesser chance of gettin a taste of what is luv...it is damn true...nobody can deny it...ya...i wont be interested in someone wif a bad exterior. u just wont fall in luv wif dem...no matter hw close dey r as a fren...dey will nv cross the line...tis is life...wad can u do? go for plastic surgery lo. life's unfair, so...
DO TRUE LOVE REALLY EXIST? YES, I BELIEVE. BUT ONLY ONE IN A MILLION COUPLES OR LESSER, I GUESS.
ya right. maybe not now but soon.
sch's as usual getting more and more hectic.
more and more stress.
i cant wait for the 1 mth break.
but i doubt i'l be resting oso. hahahah
1 more week.
i seriously cant wait.
den i'll reali have the freedom to fly.
need not bother to find anybody to tok to wen i'm down on wad.
just fly wif my darling whenever, whereever i want to.
and i noe she will stay by me as long as i can afford.
if u are ever gonna step into this blog agn.
its not u tt i hate
its not u tt cause so much hurt.
cause its not u tt i loved.
cause its not u tt i trusted wholeheartedly.
so stop saying sorry
stop saying u'll change.
stop saying u'll wait.
coz wadever u do wadever u sae will not change anything.
i noe u sae u dun care.
den stop saying everything tt u are saying.
i love hey there delilah.
den it wouldn't hav to end this way.
i jus wanna shout at eveyone.
to him, to let him noe what i'm feeling now.
to let him care.
just lik how it use to be.
but i noe i cant. coz i dun wanna bring myself so low.
i hate him. to the core.
but i noe e reason is coz i've fallen too deep.
given my heart too soon.
given my trust too wholeheartedly.
i like the feeling wen i'm with him.
i still like it even with what's happening.
even if i noe ur true self now.
i still like it.
and if u were to sae u are sorry
u wanna make it right.
i'l forgive.
i noe i will.
somehw i knew who u are.
but i tot it will be different with mi.
i noe i'm just too naive and gullible.
but i cant help.
"u promise me heaven but gave me hell"
"u built me up and tear me apart"
i'm just glad its not her tt u've hurt.
i'll be strong.
i always am.
past weekend is totally shite.
but luckily things turn for the better. to a certain extent.
i'm sorry if i offended u in any way.
i truly didn't noe of my feelings in the 1st place oso.
i wan a bf tt tells mi i'm beautiful even after yrs!! adelene u are so xin fu!!
hahahaha
this week mid term break tot can relax and all!!
but half the week is gone and i've got lotsa proj to finish, reflection papers to write, jap to study and hmwork to do and and most sickening of all READINGS!!
i cant wait for this sem to be over agn..
though i noe pretty soon it will be and i hav 2 end of sem exam onli!!!
hahahah i reali dun mind working my ass off for projs and being slacker at the end of the sem.
i hate major exams! i can nv do well NOW.
cant settle my mind down for a minute to study lo.
so gan batte!!!
Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treasure her. She could have just got up & dated so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead of all the others because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.
Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her. Don't cause a strain in the relationship, you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be.
Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.
Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.
Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same. Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.
Socialise only when you're single. You socialise & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.
It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.
Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.
Sweet talks only apply for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart. Isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give Her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.
Promise her & make sure you never break it. Swear to her & make sure you keep it. Pledge your love to her & her alone.
Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. That's love. Give her your heart, your life, your everything.
Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.
Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry On living as per normal, she'd die. Its her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?
Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can, love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.
She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promises. Win her heart & love her over. Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends". Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you. Respect her for the way she is, never despise her & never mistreat her, never even think of toying with her.
~the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides~
i think it's rather applicable for guys oso.
if only every being think this way...
i hate it wen ppl play wif feelings.
so i most definitely wun do tt!
i hate it wen ppl wu lai mi.
i wun do tt too. all i'm saying are facts.
i nv sae its all ur fault. just becoz u are angry doesn'e mi u can sae that kind of things bout mi.
this goes to show wad kind of guy are u too.
this goes to show i made the rite decidion too.
nan ren mei you da liang shld just go and die.
on a happier note.
i think i found the one.
we'l c how things goes.
and thx to u this ridiculous person made mi c him.
both of you have found the one or so u said.
i nv tot i would still behave lik that..
i tot its all settled, its all gone
but who can i fool.
every1 else but not myself.
i hate u and u for doing this to me.
now i understand how both of u felt tt time..
but both of the times mine were not real..
and yet urs were real.
those spoken and unspoken words stabbed my heart once agn..
i didn't noe it wlll hurt this bad.
i'm getting weaker with everyday..
i've no strength to hang on..
i'm trying very hard to allow u to lead mi lik they did..
but i'm starting to doubt if u can do it or if my heart truely allows..
i wanna run and hide..
would u just let mi do tt pls..
2nd oct. that will be my final answer.
and if in any case, i'm sorry.
i tried.
everytime sth happen to ur, i'l just be there..
no matter how busy i m, u call & i'l listen..
although i noe i cant help much, at least an extra listening ear..
den wen everything is ok..a msg of concern u wun even reply..
and den the next time i hear from u, its coz sth happen agn
so y do i care..
and u..u find mi wen u need mi..
and wen u dun..poof..disappear into thin air..
so y do i care...
u..everytime u decided to stay in contact wif mi
and u wanna meet up
u tried ways and means to convince mi that we can be frens..
and den what..
so y do i care..
if u think ur life ___,think
if u think u are such a ___ think agn..
what more do u ask for..
from today onwards, i'm not gonna care..
i dun care if i'm a ____..coz i'm perfectly fine with that..
1) i hate been nag at early in the morning. stop being so biase.
dun u feel sorry at all for wad happened? i can jolly well change to be a different person because of that.
but i didn't. shldn't u feel relieved,grateful. coz if i did, u will be getting worse then this i tell u.
maybe i shld start from now to make u realise how considerate i am already.
2) after working for so long in the clinic, i realise for the past few mths, my doctor had been eating my money.
fuck.
usually i'l just count the hours i've clocked.so for eg,
8.5+3.15+4+2.5+3.15=21.3
$6/hr so that 21.3 x 6= 127.8
BUT actually the hours i clocked is 21.5
so ACTUALLY I SHLD GET $129!!!
so i'm getting less than wad i deserved!
damnit. maybe its nth much to some ppl.
but its not the $$ tts impt!! the fact is he nv even corrected it!
and to think i stil force myself to help in fill in some of the slots in the past
coz we are seriously shorthanded.
i hate to start a day like that.
wanted to just stop here but just update abit abt my mundane life now ba..
sch's getting on me.
sorta regretted taking jap lang. its too shag alr. but no choice cant do anything alr.
projs projs and projs..
didn't reali followed what i planned to do from the start of the sem, which is to go for training..
constantly..
got a bad news that bike insurance for under 21 riders increase. and u know what..
not by a tweenie winnie amt bout doubled!!!
its $1300 now!! for sports bike..
ok den y not get kup rite..the insurance is oso $1000!!
fark. dun think i'm getting 1 even if i pass.
as much as i want to. its to hard for mi to maintain.
self expenses, bills, bike lessons is enough to kill mi..
let alone expenses, bills, fuel, installments..
and guess what, even though i'm earning so little i'm not getting any $$ from u.
and yet what are u giving mi.
i dunno if i make the right choice.
and i doubt i did.
and history most prob will repeat itself.but
i'm not gonna think too much. just let things be.
and no. i wun let myself follow ur route.
or maybe i shld.
its tiring to be holding on.
and i'm reali tired.
live my life and u will noe what tired and depression reali mean.
i passed my prac 7!!! woohoo..tp oct 11!! so late late late..
oh and i ride in the rain for the 1st time..
i mean real big shower..hahahah kinda shiok but cold though.
sch's been real busy wif the jap lang my taking..
its fun! but hectic..tt's the price i hav to pay.
1 drawing mod i'm taking is killing mi.
1 computer mod i'm taking is suffocating mi.
but i'm enjoying every1 of those :)
received a terrible news ytd.
my fren committed suicide on wed.
its scary what stress, expectations, sadness can do to us.
i hope he r.i.p.
isn't this nice!!! JAS!! its playboy..hahahahh
by 'jack'
his art works is bagus i tel ya..
opps i'm in lecture now..haahah nth beter to do.
understanding the universe.
boring!!
ciao.
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